blog 12

                                                      The epilogue to the novel
It's been seven years since I stepped on this unpredictable land called United States of America.

   My name is Sookan, I came here for college at the beginning, and I've graduated for five years. I look back, look back at my path, wonder how I've come here, but never get an exact answer from it. Everything seemed happen so quick that I can't catch up. Well, who is able to?

   I've been in love with a man, and we got merry. However, things didn't go the way we expected, they just always don't. Life is complicated, yet easy to see through after all. I wish I have the power to go back then and stop being naive and ignorant, but I can't. 

   We argued, we fight, standing on different side of road staring at each other uncomfortably, neither dares to step closer. Divorce comes after all. It's hard to say goodbye to someone you got used to and live with for that many moments. Even harder to recognize the stranger who seems so familiar, but you don't the courage to talk to. That's how it feels like after all these. I wonder.

   Yep, I have lost everything I had. Mom has gone to another world. And my only sister has married to a man and became someone who seems doesn't care about me at all. What else has left in my life, endless energy of young blood? Which just the unacceptable excuse for irresponsibility and fatuous.

   I unpacked the letters written by my family when I was still in college, the letters full of hope, full of the love from another side of the world, and those don't exist anymore. It was the best part of my life, picking up and putting back a lot of treasure there. I met Marci, Kyle, Mr. Bennett and some many other wonderful people. Those people just show up and disappear in your life, probably been forgotten after ten years, but still makes a great memory.

   It's time to start a new journey, it will be full of challenge, danger, everything will be unexpected. But that's how we keep our last breath in this world, to survive, to live. I have learnt how to love myself, and make the right decisions from this path, and never regret.